1.Addicted
Cheryl Wheeler
'Addicted'
She says she hates to sleep alone, but she'll do it tonight.
She wants to grab her telephone, but she knows it ain't right.
So if he won't call, she'll survive, and if he don't care,
she'll get by.
Climb into bed, bury her head, and cry.
From the beginning he was all anyone could have been.
They were delirious with love; they were certain to win.
Now he's breaking plans more and more, and he's leaving notes on
her door.
Took a trip out of town, couldn't turn this one down; He said,
'I guess I
should have told you before.'
She says she feels like she's addicted to a real bad thing,
Always sitting, waiting, wondering if the phone will ring,
She knows she bounces like a yo-yo when he pulls her string,
It hurts to feel like such a fool.
She wants to tell him not to call or come around again,
He doesn't need her now at all the way that she needs him.
She's on the edge about to fall from leaning out and in,
And she don't know which way to move.
She wants to be fair; she couldn't say he was ever unkind,
But if she could bear to walk away, she thinks he wouldn't mind
'Cause he just keeps himself so apart and there's no one else in
her heart,
So she's taking a dive from an emotional high and coming down
hard.
She's determined to try, but she'll still give in when he gives
her a call.
She'll ask herself why, but in the end it won't matter at all.
Sure, she could sit at home, stay inside and sleep alone with
her pride
And as she walks out that door, she feels as weak as before with
nothing to
hide.
She says she feels like she's addicted to a real bad thing,
Always sitting, waiting, wondering if the phone will ring,
She knows she bounces like a yo-yo when he pulls her string,
It hurts to feel like such a fool.
She wants to tell him not to call or come around again,
He doesn't need her now at all the way that she needs him.
She's on the edge about to fall from leaning out and in,
And she don't know which way to move.
She says she feels like she's addicted to a real bad thing,
Always sitting, waiting, wondering if the phone will ring,
She knows she bounces like a yo-yo when he pulls her string,
It hurts to feel like such a fool.
And she don't know which way to move.
It hurts to feel like such a fool.
2.Arrow
Cheryl Wheeler
'Arrow'
I wish I could fall in love
Though it only leads to trouble, oh I know it does.
Still I'd fool myself and gladly just to feel I was
In love, in love.
I wish I could feel my heartbeat rise
And gaze into some gentle warm excited eyes,
And give myself as truly as an arrow flies
In endless skies.
Oh, I remember you in the TV light
Holding you close to me where we lay,
And now I wish I knew some of those softer nights
Whispering quietly, feeling you turn to me.
It was only last night in the winter dark
I dreamed of how you loved in all your innocence,
And I've never known a softer warmer feeling since
Or a truer heart.
But maybe these dreams are leading me;
Maybe love is not as gentle as my memory;
Maybe time and wishful (？) them their fantasies
Or the greatest heart.
Oh, but I remember you in the TV light
Holding you close to me where we lay,
And now I wish I knew some of those softer nights
Whispering quietly, feeling you turn to me.
Wish I could feel my heartbeat rise
And gaze into some gentle warm excited eyes,
And give myself as truly as an arrow flies
In endless skies.
Oh, I wish I could fall in love
Though it only leads to trouble, oh I know it does.
Still I'd fool myself and gladly just to feel I was
In love.
3.Summer Fly
Summer Fly
In another younger day I could dream the time away
In the universe inside my room
And the world was really mine from June to September
And if it wasn't really so, I waslucky not to know
And I was lucky not to wonder why
'Cause a pure and golden high is all that I remember
A summer fly was buzzin' every night when I was young
In the gentle world my childlike senses knew
And the world was just my cousin and the wind was just the
tongue
In the voice my lonely moments listened to.
And I look at me today all the dreams have gone away
And I'm where I never thought I'd be
Seein' things I never thought I'd see happenin' to me
And I lay awake at night till the darkness goes to light
Hearin' voices callin' out my name
Dronin' over and again the same message through me
Cryin' who's your partner, who's your darlin'
who's your baby now？
Who wakes up at night to pull you in？
It don't matter, you just make her lonely anyhow,
don't know why you even try to win.
(c) Cheryl Wheeler, 1987
4.75 Septembers
Wheeler Cheryl
Driving Home
75 Septembers
In the year of the yellow cab
Shadow of the great world war
The third kid grandmom had
Came into this world
On a rolling farm in Maryland
When Wilson was the president
As summer blew her goodbye through the trees
A child of changing times
Growing up between the wars
Fords rolled off the lines
And bars all closed their doors
and I imagine you back then
With snap brim hat and farmer's tan
Where horses drew their wagons through the fields
Now the fields are all four lanes
and the moon's not just a name
Are you more amazed at how things change
Or how they stay the same
And do you sit here on this porch and wonder
How the time flies by
Or does it seem to barely creep along
With 75 Septembers come and gone
Were the fields all gold and fawn
Was the spring house dark and cool
Did the rooster crow at dawn
When they got you up for school
And would you tell me once again
The tales of granddad's hired men
And how they drove the old dirt road to town
Cause now the fields are all four lanes
And the moon's not just a name
Are you more amazed at how things change
Or how they stay the same
And do you sit here on this porch and wonder
How the times flies by
Or does it seem to barely creep along
With 75 Septembers come and gone
In the year of the yellow cab
Shadow of the great world war
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